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1. I usually live out of bags

1. bites

2. cough

2. ice is to east coast as banana is to slippery

1. like the right side, something has slipped in my brain which makes writing happen again

3. they say edie and her family and her family and her family

4. and what's that willie nelson song that dad wants played at his funeral?

5. I'm a rather messy and quick eater

1. I eat goat cheese try and flick the crumbs away but they just smear into my clothes

6. kant: what causes laughter is the sudden transformation of a tense expectation into nothing

7. when somebody says something I disagree with but I don’t wanna get into I usually just say “please” as if that would sum up all my thoughts on the subject

8. packing up takes a long time cause beforehand we have to take the cat out on a rehearsal pre-drive so she’ll shit and piss herself in a controlled way

1. sometimes she still shits and pisses during the real thing 

9. now when I come home I act more like a child than I did before I left

10. the sky is a special color right now

1. I can’t capture it with my phone but I try anyway

11. 100% of times I guess that I’m moving in the wrong direction

1. this place should be my north star but my body feels like it’s flowing south

12. going upstate already makes me happier 

13. all I do now is stay up very late talking to my dad

1. he’s finally telling me his life story. 

14. nobody asks me about my horrendous smokers cough

1. I try not to fixate too much on how short my breath has been getting 

15. I’ve started texting with an ex again 

1. he was in my dream the night before he texted me for the first time in a year